Oh man…I’m a blog looser. Guys, life is just busy, and I’m adjusting as fast as I can, but find myself needing more and more down time the crazier things get.
Crazy in a good way. It’s just a lot of change, all at once, and some things have to slide for now.
First off, I LOVE my job. I had no idea really what I was getting into when I decided to be a para sub with the school. I knew it would match Sky’s schedule and that was pretty much good enough for me, for now. Turns out I love what I’m doing, and so does the school because it’s turned into a permanent (for now) para gig. The school is wonderful and I love all my co-workers. The job itself is challenging, heartbreaking at times, frustrating at times, and rewarding beyond measure.
I sort of like that I don’t have cell service or internet access during the day, not going to lie I like being disconnected for 6 hours a day. I do get service here and there by certain windows, but given some of the challenging situations I can’t afford to be distracted by my phone, so I leave it locked away.
When I get home there’s Sky time/homework and all the
challenges fun of having a 5 year old. By the time bedtime rolls around all I really want is wine and football, or a movie. And, if I have to choose between getting a workout/run in or getting on the computer with the odd 45 minutes I find here and there the workouts are going to win every time.
It’s getting better though. I’m working on nailing down the mission critical stuff like homework, workouts, cooking dinner, grocery shopping, laundry, house cleaning every now and then. Things are coming together, and I know I’ll work in the blog time again soon. For now I’m adding one thing back to my To Do List at a time (or shifting it to Mark’s list a now and then). It’s progress that I found 15 min to do this post, so I’m getting there! Shhhh….it could also be that I’ve moved my office from the dinning room table back into the walk-in closet so no-one knows I’m in here getting things done! 😉
In the meantime I’m taking advantage of every minute of quiet time I find during the day. The 45 minutes between dropping Sky off at school and me going to work is heavenly and I’m spending it reading, or drinking coffee, ok really I’m doing both. The 10 minutes before she gets out of school…I walk very slowly to her class and take lots of cleansing deep breaths. When I have time I stop and enjoy the changing leaves, the pretty flowers, or the beautiful clouds in the sky.
It’s only been a month and I’m giving myself some grace to settle in and get back to life running smoothly.